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Hola, ruya. Where to, mami?
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44th, between 9th and 10th.
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Here you go, buddy.
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Feel the magic
of the city that never sleeps.
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From the lights of Broadway
to the paths of Central Park.
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Find your playground
in New York--
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All right.
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God damn it.
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Fuckin' asshole.
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44th and 9th, huh?
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Yep.
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Midtown.
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Good ol' Midtown.
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You are my last fare
of the night.
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- Yeah?
- Yeah.
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I won?
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You fuckin' won, sweetheart,
you did.
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What do I get for winning?
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Anything you want.
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Yeah.
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I had a rough day of it.
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Short trips,
barely nothing extra.
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This fuckin' business
with the credit cards.
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I mean, when it was cash,
people throw you 10, 20, 50.
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Fuckin' Monopoly money, right?
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But you swipe that plastic,
you got time to think.
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Staring at all those
little numbers,
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before you know it,
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I get fucked up the asshole.
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These fuckin' apps, all of 'em.
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Get a coffee, burger,
soap, socks,
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wine, water, weed,
fuckin' Chinese takeout.
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You can get all that shit
and never reach for your purse.
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Nah, not even for tip.
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I mean, salt used to be money.
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Motherfuckin' salt,
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the same shit
you sprinkle on your eggs.
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You know, every morning you toss
that cheap-ass shit on your eggs
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with no idea
that people used to die for it.
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Tea, coffee, same thing.
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All that shit you gloss over
at the grocery store,
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at one point in time,
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humans fuckin'
killed each other for it.
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Bird's eye view
of all that shit?
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Over the years, you see money
go from salt to gold to paper.
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And now, money,
it ain't nothing but an idea,
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just little numbers on a screen.
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Can't touch it, can't bury it,
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can't put a little X
that marks the spot.
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Nah, you just tie it
to a fuckin' butterfly
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and send it up
into that cloud up there.
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But one of these days,
I'm telling you,
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that cloud's gonna open up
and it's gonna pour acid rain
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down all over our dumb faces.
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Well, I got you covered.
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Yeah?
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My bag in the back
should settle us.
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How?
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It's full of salt.
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That's good. That's good.
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For that, you can use
a damn credit card, honey.
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It is what it is at this point.
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I mean, cabs, yellow cabs
are like fuckin' Blockbuster.
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You know?
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Ten years' time, there ain't
gonna be no yellow cab no more.
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And all the other guys,
the ones with the apps,
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the ones that are,
you know, taking over,
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they're gonna be nothing
but a blip on the screen
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in a fuckin' blink of an eye,
all said and done.
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Yeah, you'll order up a car
on your phone just like before.
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But when you hop in,
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it ain't gonna be
no human behind the wheel,
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I can tell you that.
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You'll order up a car,
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and that fuckin' car
will drive itself
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to wherever the fuck
you want to go.
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It won't speed, it won't stink,
it won't make you sick.
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Won't ever get lost.
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Might even ask you
how your day was.
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- Fuckin' apps.
- Fuckin' apps, man.
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Want some radio?
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Not really.
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Yeah.
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Okay.
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It's nice
you're not on your phone.
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You don't have to keep talking
to me or nothing but...
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Just nice, you know?
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To see a human not plugged in.
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What's your name?
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Why?
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I just like
to know people's names.
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Fuck,
you really are human.
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That's sweet.
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Clark.
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- Clark.
- You thought I'd say Vinny
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or some shit.
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- I don't know what I thought.
- Nah, it's fine.
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I mean, Clark.
Clark...
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...has a house in the Hamptons,
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he plays tennis,
he goes to the opera and shit.
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I'm never, ever
going to be that guy.
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What name would you choose
if you could?
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Vinny.
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- Vinny.
- Vinny. Classic.
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Of course.
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So you live here, right?
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- I do.
- Yeah.
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Your little outfit
gave you away.
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My little outfit?
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It says a lot about you.
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What does it say?
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That you can handle yourself.
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How could you
possibly know that?
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It ain't that difficult
to read people.
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I mean, you jumped in,
business as usual,
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you turned off that
damn little screen back there
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'cause you already know
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what Broadway shows
are fuckin' playing.
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Didn't even think to reach
for your seatbelt.
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Why would you?
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Had enough rides, in and out.
Am I right?
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What else?
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You gave me cross streets
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instead of some recited address
from your phone.
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I can tell you're not concerned
with the meter,
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'cause you already know
JFK's a flat rate.
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- Impressive.
- Yeah.
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I'm not claiming
to be some Sherlock or nothing,
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just a guy who pays attention.
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You've had a long day,
you're tired.
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You wanna go home,
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take a shower,
sleep in your own bed,
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and you got in line
for a motherfuckin' taxi.
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Now that's a New Yorker
that pays attention.
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Someone who knows
what the fuck's going on.
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And you're not afraid
to look me in the eye.
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Like I said,
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you can handle yourself.
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I like to think so.
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Where are you flying in from?
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Uh, Oklahoma.
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What's in Oklahoma?
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I grew up there.
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What about your accent?
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- Sorry, what?
- Your accent.
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- My accent?
- Yeah.
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Don't people from Oklahoma
talk like this?
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Oh.
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Not all of us, apparently.
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Where are you from?
What part of the state?
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Just a tiny little town.
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What's the town?
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- You've never heard of it.
- What's the town?
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Okay, so Oklahoma is shaped
like a pan, right?
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So if my arm is the panhandle...
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Yeah?
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Then I grew up here.
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- The armpit.
- Of Oklahoma.
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What's it called?
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- Gage.
- Gage, Oklahoma.
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You got it.
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I, honest to God, would
never have guessed Oklahoma.
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What would you
have guessed?
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Not an armpit,
I can tell you that.
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How long you been in New York?
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- Nine years in June.
- No shit?
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No shit.
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One more year
and I'll be official.
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- What you do for work?
- I'm a programmer.
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- Computers?
- Computers.
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- No shit?
- No shit.
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Like ones and zeroes
and that shit?
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Like ones and zeroes
and that shit.
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Huh.
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You thought I'd say something
more girly, didn't you?
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- Yeah.
- Yeah.
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Yeah, I thought, you know,
wedding planner.
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- Or fashion or something.
- Fashion, hmm.
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Not as many women code,
I'll give you that.
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Yeah, you drew a line
in the sand,
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lifted your leg
and left your mark.
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I don't mind squatting.
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So what's the deal
with the ones and zeroes?
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Like?
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They're like building blocks
and whatnot.
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Like when I look at my computer,
I'm really looking
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at a bunch of ones and zeroes
and shit.
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Yeah, something like that.
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Well, tell me. I mean,
I, honest to God, want to know.
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Can't be a know-it-all
if I don't know nothing.
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Mmm.
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Okay.
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Basically...
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...so a computer
uses electricity
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to create on and off states
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that can represent
ones and zeroes.
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One being on and zero being off.
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But they more often represent
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the idea of something being
true or false.
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Ones and zeroes
mean true or false?
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Well, not always.
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They can also represent
numbers and other things.
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But much of what I do is testing
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whether something
is true or false,
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and I've always used one
to mean true and--
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Zero to mean false.
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- You got it.
- Oh.
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Everything in a computer,
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the colors, images, music,
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money, three-dimensional worlds,
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all of it is...
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Is represented
by ones and zeroes.
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True and false.
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Correct.
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It's basically
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how everything you see operates.
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Hmm.
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I mean, it makes sense.
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We all do that.
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Lay down our bricks
of ones and zeroes,
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and build ourselves a fort.
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And that shit,
it starts young, right?
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"You are stupid,
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"true or false?"
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"You are ugly, true or false?"
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"Your mother loves you,
true or false?"
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And when you grow up,
that shit don't stop.
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I mean,
"Climate change, true or false?"
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"Jesus Christ, true or false?"
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"You must wear pants today,
true or false?"
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And so it goes, on and on.
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We all gotta choose
our ones and zeroes
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in whatever we decide, yeah?
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That becomes the foundation
from which we operate.
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Or maybe
I'm just talking bullshit.
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Zero.
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Hmmm.
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You're a...
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You're a surprising person,
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- I must say.
- Aw, shucks.
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Very little surprises me
these days.
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- What about you?
- What about me what?
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- Where are you from?
- Hell's Kitchen.
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Or what used to be
Hell's Kitchen,
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not too far
from where we're going.
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What was it like
when you were a kid?
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Well, back in my day,
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man, if hell really did
have a kitchen,
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that would've been it.
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You know, you had junkies
on every stoop,
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hookers on every corner.
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"Want a date? Want a date?"
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It was fantastic.
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You still live in Manhattan?
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I own a place, Jackson Heights.
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- It's a small house.
- Still a house.
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You better fuckin' believe it.
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So, Clark lives in Queens?
261
00:20:33,850 --> 00:20:36,433
No, no, no, no, no, no.
262
00:20:36,433 --> 00:20:37,975
Vinny lives in Queens.
263
00:20:37,975 --> 00:20:40,683
Clark, well,
he's got a loft in Tribeca.
264
00:20:41,767 --> 00:20:43,017
Right.
265
00:21:11,559 --> 00:21:13,476
Oh, fuck. That ain't good.
266
00:21:15,726 --> 00:21:16,934
Damn it.
267
00:21:16,934 --> 00:21:19,351
Some kind of fender bender
up there.
268
00:21:23,434 --> 00:21:25,518
Sorry, sweetie,
I hate this shit.
269
00:21:25,518 --> 00:21:26,601
Not your fault.
270
00:21:26,601 --> 00:21:29,976
Huh. Fuckin' know these roads
like the back of my hand,
271
00:21:30,851 --> 00:21:32,935
but still can't predict
the weather.
272
00:21:33,851 --> 00:21:36,309
It's the one thing
those fuckin' apps have on me.
273
00:21:36,309 --> 00:21:38,392
That's the one fuckin' thing.
274
00:21:38,392 --> 00:21:40,434
- It's fine, really.
- No, it's not fine.
275
00:21:40,434 --> 00:21:41,518
It's not professional,
276
00:21:41,518 --> 00:21:42,851
I should've been
paying attention,
277
00:21:42,851 --> 00:21:44,185
I could've gotten off
back there.
278
00:21:44,185 --> 00:21:45,309
Well...
279
00:21:46,684 --> 00:21:49,351
- I'm on the flat rate.
- Oh...
280
00:21:49,351 --> 00:21:50,851
So...
281
00:21:50,851 --> 00:21:52,810
Nah, I'm gonna meter your ass.
282
00:21:52,810 --> 00:21:54,935
Nope. No, man.
283
00:21:54,935 --> 00:21:57,310
I won. I won again.
284
00:21:57,310 --> 00:21:59,601
You're leaving me
in the dust over here.
285
00:22:00,768 --> 00:22:01,768
Two to zero.
286
00:25:57,396 --> 00:25:59,188
How long were you in Oklahoma?
287
00:26:00,939 --> 00:26:02,188
Um...
288
00:26:02,939 --> 00:26:04,271
Two weeks.
289
00:26:04,271 --> 00:26:05,980
You're visiting family?
290
00:26:06,897 --> 00:26:08,355
I have a half-sister.
291
00:26:33,272 --> 00:26:36,064
What's she like? Your sister?
292
00:26:37,814 --> 00:26:39,439
She's, um...
293
00:26:43,189 --> 00:26:45,147
Honestly, she's kind of a bitch.
294
00:26:45,147 --> 00:26:48,231
How's she a bitch?
What'd she do?
295
00:26:48,231 --> 00:26:51,189
You know, little things like...
296
00:26:53,481 --> 00:26:55,731
She makes fun of my cankles.
297
00:26:55,731 --> 00:26:58,523
- Your cankles?
- I have thick ankles.
298
00:26:58,523 --> 00:27:00,731
Nah, I don't believe that.
299
00:27:00,731 --> 00:27:02,856
- It's true.
- You're small.
300
00:27:02,856 --> 00:27:05,731
I'm small,
and I have thick ankles.
301
00:27:05,731 --> 00:27:06,898
That's a thing?
302
00:27:06,898 --> 00:27:08,898
It's a thing.
303
00:27:10,272 --> 00:27:12,564
- Sounds cute.
- Thank you.
304
00:27:14,232 --> 00:27:15,564
It is cute.
305
00:27:17,315 --> 00:27:21,232
I take it you and the bitch
don't visit very often.
306
00:27:21,232 --> 00:27:24,398
I hadn't seen her in years.
307
00:27:24,981 --> 00:27:26,940
Huh. Why?
308
00:27:28,148 --> 00:27:29,731
We just stopped talking.
309
00:27:31,023 --> 00:27:33,482
We didn't get in a fight
or anything, we just...
310
00:27:35,232 --> 00:27:36,731
stopped talking.
311
00:27:37,773 --> 00:27:38,773
Why now?
312
00:27:38,773 --> 00:27:41,398
She tracked me down
and asked me to visit,
313
00:27:41,398 --> 00:27:43,148
and I, you know,
314
00:27:44,106 --> 00:27:45,773
I didn't have a reason
to say no.
315
00:27:45,773 --> 00:27:48,106
We had a nice time.
316
00:27:48,106 --> 00:27:50,315
I mean,
she's a total fuckin' bitch,
317
00:27:51,649 --> 00:27:53,440
but we laughed a lot, and...
318
00:27:55,273 --> 00:27:57,065
We just drank a lot
and laughed a lot.
319
00:27:57,065 --> 00:27:58,190
Hmm.
320
00:27:59,065 --> 00:28:00,440
She married?
321
00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:02,982
- She has a girlfriend.
- Nice.
322
00:28:04,982 --> 00:28:06,482
Her name is Eagle.
323
00:28:07,482 --> 00:28:09,607
Fuck me, is that Native American
or something?
324
00:28:09,607 --> 00:28:10,690
That's right.
325
00:28:10,690 --> 00:28:12,607
Well, that's some cool-ass shit
right there.
326
00:28:12,607 --> 00:28:14,024
Hmm.
327
00:28:14,024 --> 00:28:15,982
Yeah. They seem happy.
328
00:28:15,982 --> 00:28:19,732
They live in a trailer,
and they just got a parakeet.
329
00:28:20,857 --> 00:28:23,774
Saving up to do some traveling
next year. She's...
330
00:28:24,941 --> 00:28:26,191
She's come a long way.
331
00:28:26,941 --> 00:28:28,607
Is she older or younger?
332
00:28:28,607 --> 00:28:32,732
She was 11
when I was born, so...
333
00:28:36,191 --> 00:28:38,399
She was kind of like a mom
growing up.
334
00:28:38,399 --> 00:28:39,358
Hmmm.
335
00:28:39,358 --> 00:28:43,024
But she was a fucked-up mom.
Like, fucked-up.
336
00:28:43,024 --> 00:28:46,774
She used to tie me up
ankle to ankle, wrist to wrist,
337
00:28:46,774 --> 00:28:48,899
and put me in the bathtub,
338
00:28:48,899 --> 00:28:50,441
and lock me in the bathroom.
339
00:28:50,441 --> 00:28:51,525
What?
340
00:28:53,024 --> 00:28:54,149
Bathtub full?
341
00:28:54,149 --> 00:28:55,316
Empty.
342
00:28:55,899 --> 00:28:57,775
Why the fuck would she do that?
343
00:29:00,483 --> 00:29:02,316
It was her way
of helping me practice.
344
00:29:02,316 --> 00:29:03,399
Practice what?
345
00:29:05,650 --> 00:29:08,858
If I ever got kidnapped,
I'd be able to escape.
346
00:29:08,858 --> 00:29:10,233
That was her logic.
347
00:29:34,942 --> 00:29:36,817
Did you like getting tied up?
348
00:29:42,108 --> 00:29:45,942
I liked the challenge
of getting free.
349
00:29:52,900 --> 00:29:54,526
You got loose, didn't you?
350
00:29:57,150 --> 00:29:59,734
You sat there in that cold tub,
351
00:29:59,734 --> 00:30:01,900
that cold, empty tub,
352
00:30:02,567 --> 00:30:04,983
and you wiggled yourself loose
353
00:30:06,150 --> 00:30:07,983
every fuckin' time.
354
00:30:11,609 --> 00:30:13,317
Kidnappers be damned.
355
00:30:15,150 --> 00:30:18,359
Like I said,
you can handle yourself.
356
00:30:19,526 --> 00:30:22,192
Did you get a prize
for getting loose?
357
00:30:22,192 --> 00:30:23,692
Not really.
358
00:30:23,692 --> 00:30:26,984
By the time I'd get free,
she'd be at work or whatever.
359
00:30:26,984 --> 00:30:29,109
- And where was Mom?
- Mom was gone.
360
00:30:29,109 --> 00:30:30,193
Where'd she go?
361
00:30:33,526 --> 00:30:35,609
Mom went out
for a pack of smokes
362
00:30:35,609 --> 00:30:36,901
and never came back.
363
00:30:39,651 --> 00:30:40,734
That's funny.
364
00:30:42,068 --> 00:30:43,068
You're funny.
365
00:30:45,401 --> 00:30:46,984
What are you? 25, 26?
366
00:30:46,984 --> 00:30:49,276
Oh, no, no, no.
I don't answer that question.
367
00:30:49,276 --> 00:30:52,235
- Why the hell not?
- Because it's bullshit.
368
00:30:52,235 --> 00:30:54,859
Well, what, are you weird
about your age or something?
369
00:30:54,859 --> 00:30:57,859
The whole world is fuckin' weird
about my age.
370
00:30:58,818 --> 00:31:03,151
If I told you
that I was 24 or 34,
371
00:31:04,276 --> 00:31:06,984
your opinion of me
would drastically change.
372
00:31:06,984 --> 00:31:08,068
That's not true.
373
00:31:09,693 --> 00:31:11,943
For women, it is true.
374
00:31:12,735 --> 00:31:15,360
It is fuckin' true.
375
00:31:15,360 --> 00:31:17,777
The moment we hit 30,
our value is cut in half.
376
00:31:17,777 --> 00:31:20,819
I mean, fine.
Fuck it, it's true.
377
00:31:20,819 --> 00:31:22,610
- It's fuckin' true.
- It's fuckin' true.
378
00:31:22,610 --> 00:31:25,235
But listen,
you really do look 20-something,
379
00:31:25,235 --> 00:31:27,902
but by the way you talk,
all smart and shit,
380
00:31:27,902 --> 00:31:31,110
you know, if I wasn't looking,
I would guess you were 50, so.
381
00:31:33,735 --> 00:31:34,819
So, why does it matter
382
00:31:34,819 --> 00:31:36,735
how many times
I've been around the sun?
383
00:31:36,735 --> 00:31:38,069
Hell if I know.
384
00:31:40,277 --> 00:31:43,902
I guess it's just my way
of trying to understand.
385
00:31:45,319 --> 00:31:46,568
Understand what?
386
00:31:46,568 --> 00:31:49,152
Well, it is a bit confusing
to meet some chick who looks 22,
387
00:31:49,152 --> 00:31:51,236
but is clearly
such a fuckin' rocket ship.
388
00:31:51,236 --> 00:31:52,652
A rocket ship?
389
00:31:54,528 --> 00:31:55,610
That's you.
390
00:31:57,361 --> 00:31:59,693
- Yeah, that is me.
- Yeah. Feel it, own it.
391
00:31:59,693 --> 00:32:01,486
Oh, I feel it.
392
00:32:01,486 --> 00:32:03,944
Gonna take over the whole
wide world, no question.
393
00:32:03,944 --> 00:32:06,444
I'll build a small empire
394
00:32:06,444 --> 00:32:08,152
- and leave the rest.
- Yeah.
395
00:32:08,152 --> 00:32:12,486
You... You plan to share
that empire with someone?
396
00:32:12,486 --> 00:32:14,736
A boyfriend,
a girlfriend or whatnot?
397
00:32:15,861 --> 00:32:16,861
Mmm...
398
00:32:16,861 --> 00:32:18,985
What? You need me
to kick someone's ass?
399
00:32:18,985 --> 00:32:20,653
No, it's okay.
400
00:32:20,653 --> 00:32:22,236
What's their name?
401
00:32:22,903 --> 00:32:25,236
His name doesn't matter.
402
00:32:25,236 --> 00:32:27,986
He fuck up that bad?
403
00:32:27,986 --> 00:32:30,528
Come on.
I told you my name, tell me his.
404
00:32:31,194 --> 00:32:32,903
I'd rather not say.
405
00:32:32,903 --> 00:32:35,402
Oh, I see. I get it.
406
00:32:36,736 --> 00:32:39,653
- You get what?
- I get it, he's married.
407
00:32:47,444 --> 00:32:48,903
Why do you think he's married?
408
00:32:48,903 --> 00:32:51,486
You could've said his name,
I would've never known.
409
00:32:51,486 --> 00:32:53,778
I mean, there's not only one Bob
or Sam or Jeff
410
00:32:53,778 --> 00:32:56,237
in New York fuckin' City, no.
411
00:32:56,237 --> 00:32:58,986
You're afraid to say his name
because the guy's married,
412
00:32:58,986 --> 00:33:01,820
or you're married,
or someone's fuckin' married
413
00:33:01,820 --> 00:33:04,237
and no one wants to say
that shit out loud.
414
00:33:05,694 --> 00:33:06,986
Gum?
415
00:33:08,487 --> 00:33:09,487
Yes, please.
416
00:33:18,237 --> 00:33:20,153
- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
417
00:33:39,737 --> 00:33:41,529
- He's married.
- I know he's married!
418
00:33:41,529 --> 00:33:42,612
I know people.
419
00:33:43,821 --> 00:33:46,821
You don't drive a cab 20 years
and not know people.
420
00:33:46,821 --> 00:33:47,904
Word of advice,
421
00:33:47,904 --> 00:33:50,112
and this is coming
from a man married twice,
422
00:33:50,112 --> 00:33:51,403
a lot of action on the side.
423
00:33:51,403 --> 00:33:52,862
- You ready?
- Mmm.
424
00:33:52,862 --> 00:33:55,987
Don't ever say the word "love,"
all right? Just don't say it.
425
00:34:04,779 --> 00:34:07,029
Oh, sweetheart...
426
00:34:08,238 --> 00:34:10,862
...you fuckin' said it,
didn't you?
427
00:34:10,862 --> 00:34:13,571
You did,
you said the fuckin' L word.
428
00:34:13,571 --> 00:34:14,655
God, honey!
429
00:34:14,655 --> 00:34:16,321
That's fuckin' suicide
in that world.
430
00:34:16,321 --> 00:34:17,404
Didn't you know that?
431
00:34:17,404 --> 00:34:19,321
He does not want to
hear that from you.
432
00:34:19,321 --> 00:34:20,862
He wants to hear it
from his mother,
433
00:34:20,862 --> 00:34:21,946
his wife, his kids,
434
00:34:21,946 --> 00:34:24,238
but he does not want
to hear that shit from you.
435
00:34:24,238 --> 00:34:27,196
In the cognitive wheel
that is his life,
436
00:34:27,196 --> 00:34:29,446
that is not your function.
437
00:34:29,446 --> 00:34:31,446
- What is my function?
- Sex.
438
00:34:31,446 --> 00:34:34,112
Sex. Touch me, lick me, suck me,
439
00:34:34,112 --> 00:34:36,404
but do not love me.
Don't you fuckin' love me.
440
00:34:36,404 --> 00:34:38,947
No, no, no, no, no, no.
That is not...
441
00:34:38,947 --> 00:34:40,154
I'm not that...
442
00:34:42,113 --> 00:34:45,363
I'm not that girl. Okay? I...
443
00:34:51,072 --> 00:34:53,072
I just couldn't
not say it anymore.
444
00:34:53,072 --> 00:34:55,404
Oh.
445
00:34:56,488 --> 00:34:58,905
Yeah, and what's he supposed
to do? Love you back?
446
00:34:58,905 --> 00:35:01,239
He's supposed to ride in
on a big white horse
447
00:35:01,239 --> 00:35:03,613
and whisk you away
to some cliff in Greece?
448
00:35:03,613 --> 00:35:06,530
Live out his days braiding
your hair with wild flowers
449
00:35:06,530 --> 00:35:08,696
and forget-me-nots?
No fuckin' way.
450
00:35:09,364 --> 00:35:10,489
He's not gonna be there
451
00:35:10,489 --> 00:35:12,531
when your olive oil
dries up, sweetheart.
452
00:35:12,531 --> 00:35:14,614
You... You're not
that important.
453
00:35:14,614 --> 00:35:16,780
He knows that, I know that.
454
00:35:17,697 --> 00:35:21,197
You... You just gotta catch up.
It's all right.
455
00:35:21,197 --> 00:35:23,822
Gotta change your ones
to zeroes, sweetie.
456
00:35:23,822 --> 00:35:25,656
I get it, it takes time.
457
00:35:25,656 --> 00:35:29,572
Honest to God, my first wife
was everything you'd ever want.
458
00:35:29,572 --> 00:35:32,531
5'8", 115 pounds,
tits out to here,
459
00:35:32,531 --> 00:35:35,322
hair full of bleach
and a head full of nothing.
460
00:35:35,322 --> 00:35:37,781
Men love women
that are dumb as shit.
461
00:35:38,405 --> 00:35:40,656
They're fuckin' pigs
in the bedroom.
462
00:35:40,656 --> 00:35:42,322
Motherfuckin' pigs
in the bedroom,
463
00:35:42,322 --> 00:35:43,489
and we love that shit.
464
00:35:43,489 --> 00:35:44,989
You think smart women can't--
465
00:35:44,989 --> 00:35:47,114
Cannot reduce themselves
to pigs in the bedroom?
466
00:35:47,114 --> 00:35:49,156
That's right. Can't have it
both ways, doesn't exist.
467
00:35:49,156 --> 00:35:50,280
That's not true.
468
00:35:50,280 --> 00:35:51,572
You're a smart girl.
469
00:35:51,572 --> 00:35:54,823
Went to college, read a lot,
talk politics,
470
00:35:54,823 --> 00:35:55,989
- all that shit?
- Yes.
471
00:35:55,989 --> 00:35:57,531
You ever been a pig
in the bedroom?
472
00:35:59,489 --> 00:36:01,447
What is your definition
of a pig?
473
00:36:01,447 --> 00:36:03,531
See, dumb chicks can't...
They don't need explaining,
474
00:36:03,531 --> 00:36:04,906
they just do it.
475
00:36:06,323 --> 00:36:07,531
That was my first wife.
476
00:36:08,489 --> 00:36:10,572
Everything a guy could ask for.
477
00:36:12,156 --> 00:36:13,989
Then she started gaining weight
478
00:36:14,989 --> 00:36:17,073
and it made her feel bad
about herself,
479
00:36:17,073 --> 00:36:19,739
and she stops wanting to,
you know.
480
00:36:21,114 --> 00:36:22,114
Oink?
481
00:36:23,323 --> 00:36:25,156
Do her wifely duty or whatnot.
482
00:36:25,156 --> 00:36:26,657
Oh, yes, wifely duty.
483
00:36:26,657 --> 00:36:28,823
And then, no time flat,
honest to God,
484
00:36:28,823 --> 00:36:32,406
I find myself a 19-year-old,
put her up in an apartment,
485
00:36:32,406 --> 00:36:34,073
paid for the whole damn thing.
486
00:36:34,073 --> 00:36:35,698
Are you fuckin' kidding me?
487
00:36:35,698 --> 00:36:37,448
Oh, yeah. Cute little thing.
488
00:36:37,448 --> 00:36:40,323
Polish, long legs,
fucked the shit out of her.
489
00:36:40,323 --> 00:36:42,073
It was the best year of my life.
490
00:36:42,698 --> 00:36:45,824
I would've kept her around
longer, but...
491
00:36:46,490 --> 00:36:48,198
Ah...
492
00:36:48,198 --> 00:36:49,281
The L word.
493
00:36:49,990 --> 00:36:51,949
Not your function.
494
00:36:51,949 --> 00:36:54,782
You are there because
their wives had kids and got fat
495
00:36:54,782 --> 00:36:58,157
or their wives have a career
or cancer or whatever the fuck.
496
00:36:58,157 --> 00:37:00,365
But men don't want to hear that
shit coming out of your mouth.
497
00:37:00,365 --> 00:37:02,115
They barely want to
hear you say a word at all.
498
00:37:02,115 --> 00:37:04,698
Then why get married?
Why don't men just stay single
499
00:37:04,698 --> 00:37:08,199
so they can fuck whoever,
whenever, wherever?
500
00:37:08,865 --> 00:37:09,865
Whomever.
501
00:37:11,032 --> 00:37:13,824
I'm sorry. Seriously?
502
00:37:16,532 --> 00:37:17,615
Men,
503
00:37:20,074 --> 00:37:21,615
we wanna look good
for other men,
504
00:37:21,615 --> 00:37:22,907
if that makes sense.
505
00:37:22,907 --> 00:37:26,865
We want to have a fancy suit,
big house, fast car.
506
00:37:26,865 --> 00:37:29,865
He who dies
with the most toys wins, yeah.
507
00:37:29,865 --> 00:37:32,366
I was talking about the suit,
the car, the house,
508
00:37:32,366 --> 00:37:36,491
but it also includes
the wife and the kids.
509
00:37:37,407 --> 00:37:38,616
Toys.
510
00:37:38,616 --> 00:37:42,032
Now, a lot of guys out there,
maybe they did fall in love,
511
00:37:42,032 --> 00:37:44,491
maybe they did really wanna
get married and have kids,
512
00:37:44,491 --> 00:37:46,699
and whatever the fuck.
But deep down,
513
00:37:47,491 --> 00:37:49,115
really being honest,
514
00:37:50,157 --> 00:37:53,533
looking like a family man's
more important than being one.
515
00:38:02,491 --> 00:38:03,908
There are good men out there.
516
00:38:03,908 --> 00:38:07,075
Yeah, but they are very few
and very far...
517
00:38:07,075 --> 00:38:08,783
More than
you'd ever want to know.
518
00:38:16,699 --> 00:38:19,158
- Women cheat too.
- Different reasons.
519
00:38:19,158 --> 00:38:20,908
Women want to feel sexy.
520
00:38:21,783 --> 00:38:23,116
They want to feel sexy
521
00:38:23,116 --> 00:38:25,283
because they want to
feel wanted,
522
00:38:25,283 --> 00:38:27,033
and they want to feel wanted
523
00:38:28,158 --> 00:38:30,950
'cause they want to feel loved.
And there it is.
524
00:38:31,575 --> 00:38:32,659
The L word again.
525
00:38:32,659 --> 00:38:35,534
This is such fuckin' bullshit.
526
00:38:35,991 --> 00:38:38,325
I'm certain there are plenty
of women out there
527
00:38:38,325 --> 00:38:40,575
who can cheat
just like a fuckin' man.
528
00:38:40,575 --> 00:38:42,534
Sure. Sure,
there are women out there
529
00:38:42,534 --> 00:38:44,742
that just want to get fucked,
no question.
530
00:38:44,742 --> 00:38:48,075
But those women, they don't fuck
any Joe Blow down the street.
531
00:38:48,075 --> 00:38:50,534
Nah, they reserve their skills
for men that have money.
532
00:38:51,659 --> 00:38:52,992
Men who have power,
533
00:38:52,992 --> 00:38:55,158
thus causing
the whole world of men
534
00:38:55,158 --> 00:38:57,617
to want money and power
all the more.
535
00:38:57,617 --> 00:39:01,325
The suit, the house, the car,
we want those things.
536
00:39:01,325 --> 00:39:02,742
We want those things
537
00:39:02,742 --> 00:39:04,492
because we want
those skilled women
538
00:39:04,492 --> 00:39:07,659
to fuck us senseless like a man,
no strings attached.
539
00:39:08,283 --> 00:39:10,867
Therefore, you ladies,
540
00:39:10,867 --> 00:39:13,742
fighting so hard
to be our equal,
541
00:39:14,617 --> 00:39:17,326
is actually, in essence,
542
00:39:17,326 --> 00:39:20,867
still reducing most of you
to nothing but toys.
543
00:39:21,450 --> 00:39:23,117
So, the cycle continues.
544
00:39:25,326 --> 00:39:28,076
I seriously fuckin' hate you
right now.
545
00:39:29,617 --> 00:39:31,951
This is everything
that's wrong with the world.
546
00:39:31,951 --> 00:39:34,951
Look, at the end of the day,
547
00:39:34,951 --> 00:39:36,451
I do agree with you.
548
00:39:36,451 --> 00:39:38,951
Man or woman, people are people.
549
00:39:38,951 --> 00:39:41,909
- Thank you.
- And people get lonely.
550
00:39:41,909 --> 00:39:43,326
Don't matter the reason.
551
00:39:44,535 --> 00:39:46,076
Humans just want a soft spot
552
00:39:46,076 --> 00:39:48,076
to rest their heads
for an hour even,
553
00:39:48,076 --> 00:39:51,284
just a fuckin' hour
to get outside of yourself.
554
00:39:51,284 --> 00:39:53,743
But in your case,
in your particular case...
555
00:39:54,827 --> 00:39:57,201
- In my case, what?
- You mean it.
556
00:39:57,201 --> 00:40:00,035
You don't use the L word
unless you mean it, do you?
557
00:40:03,035 --> 00:40:06,118
Look, I know you're not
that girl, all right?
558
00:40:06,118 --> 00:40:07,201
I can tell.
559
00:40:07,201 --> 00:40:08,743
It's not about
having babies for you,
560
00:40:08,743 --> 00:40:10,284
it's not about bullshit.
561
00:40:11,160 --> 00:40:12,868
It's about being distracted
562
00:40:14,244 --> 00:40:15,660
just long enough
563
00:40:16,368 --> 00:40:20,451
that you can forget about
whatever the fuck happened
564
00:40:20,451 --> 00:40:22,868
in Gage, Oklahoma,
all those years ago.
565
00:40:26,743 --> 00:40:28,660
Then, one day,
for whatever reason,
566
00:40:28,660 --> 00:40:31,660
this guy grabs your attention.
567
00:40:31,660 --> 00:40:34,536
Suddenly, you want things
you never fuckin' wanted before.
568
00:40:34,536 --> 00:40:36,785
- Am I right?
- No.
569
00:40:36,785 --> 00:40:39,244
Good news is, for you,
570
00:40:39,952 --> 00:40:42,285
you'll know right away
when it happens next time
571
00:40:42,285 --> 00:40:44,327
'cause you'll know
what the fuck is going on.
572
00:40:44,327 --> 00:40:46,202
You won't be caught
with your panties down
573
00:40:46,202 --> 00:40:47,702
on the next round, sweetie.
574
00:40:47,702 --> 00:40:48,910
Unless you want to be.
575
00:40:48,910 --> 00:40:52,202
Please just
don't use the word "panties,"
576
00:40:52,202 --> 00:40:54,327
say like literally
anything else.
577
00:40:54,327 --> 00:40:57,744
- Pantaloons, underwears!
- Great.
578
00:40:58,828 --> 00:41:00,661
Regardless,
it will happen again.
579
00:41:00,661 --> 00:41:03,244
Yeah, you'll meet someone.
You'll meet someone.
580
00:41:03,244 --> 00:41:04,619
It doesn't matter where.
581
00:41:05,702 --> 00:41:07,410
And the conversation
582
00:41:07,410 --> 00:41:09,202
will start to go
in a certain way,
583
00:41:09,202 --> 00:41:10,536
men know how to do that,
584
00:41:10,536 --> 00:41:13,036
steer the talk to see
if there's interest.
585
00:41:13,036 --> 00:41:15,619
When you met your fella,
he was doing the same thing.
586
00:41:15,619 --> 00:41:18,619
He was poking around to see
if you had any candy to give.
587
00:41:19,369 --> 00:41:22,786
And there you were,
thinking how great this guy is,
588
00:41:22,786 --> 00:41:24,245
and how nice he's listening,
589
00:41:24,245 --> 00:41:26,494
and, aw,
such a warm, perfect smile,
590
00:41:26,494 --> 00:41:28,994
the warmth behind the eyes.
Bullshit!
591
00:41:28,994 --> 00:41:31,911
Bull-fuckin'-shit, sweetheart.
It wasn't no accident.
592
00:41:31,911 --> 00:41:34,036
He's done it before
and he'll do it again.
593
00:41:34,036 --> 00:41:35,994
Ain't nothing special about it.
594
00:41:39,078 --> 00:41:40,078
And now...
595
00:41:43,786 --> 00:41:45,994
I gotta piss
like a fuckin' racehorse.
596
00:41:50,744 --> 00:41:51,911
Whoa! No.
597
00:41:51,911 --> 00:41:53,994
- Do not do that in here.
- What am I supposed to do?
598
00:41:53,994 --> 00:41:56,245
- Take it outside, man.
- And get arrested?
599
00:41:56,245 --> 00:41:59,036
Who the fuck's gonna arrest you?
Come on, Hell's Kitchen.
600
00:41:59,036 --> 00:42:00,870
Like you've never
peed outside before.
601
00:42:03,578 --> 00:42:04,620
Fuck.
602
00:42:10,286 --> 00:42:12,829
Where the fuck
do you think you're going?
603
00:43:58,539 --> 00:43:59,788
He gave me his card.
604
00:44:02,163 --> 00:44:03,163
What?
605
00:44:04,288 --> 00:44:06,163
He... He gave me his card.
606
00:44:07,038 --> 00:44:08,831
He didn't ask for my number
or anything.
607
00:44:08,831 --> 00:44:11,121
Yeah, yeah. There you go.
608
00:44:11,789 --> 00:44:14,372
No, but that's my point.
609
00:44:15,330 --> 00:44:17,997
He gave me his card
and I emailed him,
610
00:44:17,997 --> 00:44:20,455
- not the other way around.
- Yeah, he's good.
611
00:44:20,455 --> 00:44:23,789
I bet that man gives out a shit
ton of cards wherever he goes.
612
00:44:23,789 --> 00:44:26,330
I mean, it's...
It's a numbers game.
613
00:44:26,330 --> 00:44:28,247
You know,
sometimes he gets the candy,
614
00:44:28,247 --> 00:44:31,288
sometimes he doesn't,
but you better believe
615
00:44:31,288 --> 00:44:33,789
he's dishing out those cards
like it's fuckin' ice cream.
616
00:44:33,789 --> 00:44:36,330
And when you contacted him,
sweetie...
617
00:44:37,580 --> 00:44:39,413
...you gave away
your first piece of candy.
618
00:44:39,413 --> 00:44:41,831
You can't blame the guy
for wanting more.
619
00:44:43,373 --> 00:44:44,914
You think about it.
620
00:44:44,914 --> 00:44:45,997
His card,
621
00:44:45,997 --> 00:44:48,373
it had a business email
on it, right?
622
00:44:49,331 --> 00:44:50,664
How long did it take him
623
00:44:50,664 --> 00:44:53,456
to switch you over to something
a little more private?
624
00:44:55,039 --> 00:44:57,122
Blink of a fuckin' eye,
am I right?
625
00:44:57,956 --> 00:45:00,623
He wasn't looking for love, sweetheart.
626
00:45:00,623 --> 00:45:02,747
He wasn't looking
to replace his wife.
627
00:45:02,747 --> 00:45:04,872
Who the hell wants to go
to all that trouble?
628
00:45:04,872 --> 00:45:05,956
No.
629
00:45:07,164 --> 00:45:10,456
He's all set up just the way
he wants to be.
630
00:45:10,456 --> 00:45:13,540
He was just looking
for another toy to play with,
631
00:45:13,540 --> 00:45:17,122
and clearly, he found one.
632
00:45:18,623 --> 00:45:21,665
For all your smarts,
and all the time and effort
633
00:45:21,665 --> 00:45:23,206
and everything
you've clearly done
634
00:45:23,206 --> 00:45:24,998
to make yourself
a fuckin' fortress,
635
00:45:24,998 --> 00:45:30,998
somehow you've found yourself
back in that bathtub again.
636
00:45:33,331 --> 00:45:36,289
Your hands and legs all tied up,
637
00:45:37,748 --> 00:45:40,165
fighting so hard to get free.
638
00:45:47,957 --> 00:45:49,998
One to two. I'm catching up.
639
00:45:50,873 --> 00:45:53,706
- You done yet?
- What?
640
00:45:53,706 --> 00:45:56,623
You've said very little
in a very long time,
641
00:45:56,623 --> 00:45:59,415
- that I don't already know.
- So?
642
00:46:00,415 --> 00:46:01,665
So, go fuck yourself.
643
00:46:12,873 --> 00:46:15,624
Listen, I run my mouth
sometimes, that's my problem.
644
00:46:15,624 --> 00:46:18,998
I... I just like
to push buttons.
645
00:46:20,082 --> 00:46:21,666
Stuff like this is...
646
00:46:22,415 --> 00:46:24,165
It's just something
people don't wanna talk about.
647
00:46:24,165 --> 00:46:26,374
Who the fuck
wants to talk about this shit?
648
00:46:26,374 --> 00:46:27,958
No one. Look...
649
00:46:29,249 --> 00:46:31,541
Look, you are
a wonderful person.
650
00:46:31,541 --> 00:46:32,624
A human.
651
00:46:32,624 --> 00:46:35,666
You ask me
about my name and shit,
652
00:46:35,666 --> 00:46:38,083
and you got a good heart.
I can see that,
653
00:46:38,083 --> 00:46:41,541
which is why I just gotta
tell you, you know,
654
00:46:41,541 --> 00:46:43,958
you're better off walking away.
655
00:46:44,999 --> 00:46:47,332
I'm not saying that because
I think I'm smarter than you.
656
00:46:47,332 --> 00:46:48,791
I'm saying it 'cause...
657
00:46:50,166 --> 00:46:53,499
I used to be that guy,
doing what your guy's doing.
658
00:46:55,166 --> 00:46:59,208
And I'm looking at your face
like that, all sad and shit.
659
00:47:01,458 --> 00:47:04,083
That's why I don't go
for the full candy no more.
660
00:47:05,166 --> 00:47:06,833
You know, I take a blowjob
on the side
661
00:47:06,833 --> 00:47:08,416
every now and then but...
662
00:47:09,999 --> 00:47:13,458
Some of you girls, you grow
a conscience in the morning,
663
00:47:13,458 --> 00:47:15,916
and I just can't deal with that,
I'm too old.
664
00:47:21,041 --> 00:47:22,375
Your guy young or old?
665
00:47:24,291 --> 00:47:26,208
- Old.
- How old?
666
00:47:27,667 --> 00:47:28,667
Old.
667
00:47:28,667 --> 00:47:31,542
Like what?
Like daddy type shit?
668
00:47:32,291 --> 00:47:34,208
He could be my father, yeah.
669
00:47:34,208 --> 00:47:36,917
So I'm guessing
you don't have a daddy, right?
670
00:47:36,917 --> 00:47:39,458
- I mean I do, but--
- No, but you don't have a daddy,
671
00:47:39,458 --> 00:47:41,959
and you wanted him
to be your daddy. Am I right?
672
00:47:45,792 --> 00:47:47,209
You ever call him Daddy?
673
00:47:56,542 --> 00:47:58,708
- Two to two.
- We're tied.
674
00:47:58,708 --> 00:48:00,417
We are tied.
675
00:48:00,417 --> 00:48:03,084
- Oh, you call him Daddy.
- I do.
676
00:48:03,084 --> 00:48:04,917
- That's hot.
- It's fucked up.
677
00:48:04,917 --> 00:48:06,834
There's nothing fucked up
about that.
678
00:48:06,834 --> 00:48:08,583
I don't know psychology
very well,
679
00:48:08,583 --> 00:48:11,000
but I know it don't take
rocket science to figure out
680
00:48:11,000 --> 00:48:14,000
that there's a little girl
inside you.
681
00:48:14,000 --> 00:48:16,792
The one you used to be,
she didn't go anywhere.
682
00:48:17,334 --> 00:48:19,543
And that little girl,
she didn't have a daddy,
683
00:48:19,543 --> 00:48:22,125
but she still needs
a fuckin' daddy, right?
684
00:48:23,251 --> 00:48:25,000
So, you meet this guy
685
00:48:25,000 --> 00:48:27,084
with his bald head
and his liver spots,
686
00:48:27,084 --> 00:48:29,875
and whatever the hell
he's got going on.
687
00:48:29,875 --> 00:48:33,251
Would make most girls your age
want to puke, but not you.
688
00:48:33,251 --> 00:48:35,417
Because he's everything
you missed out there
689
00:48:35,417 --> 00:48:36,501
back in the day.
690
00:48:36,501 --> 00:48:38,334
He's all the things
your friends had
691
00:48:38,334 --> 00:48:40,125
that you didn't fuckin' have.
692
00:48:41,668 --> 00:48:42,960
And the little girl inside,
693
00:48:42,960 --> 00:48:45,626
she just wants her daddy
to hold her.
694
00:48:45,626 --> 00:48:48,876
Tell her nice things
and tell her bedtime stories.
695
00:48:48,876 --> 00:48:52,001
But the grown woman
on the outside?
696
00:48:52,709 --> 00:48:56,001
Well, she wants a different kind
of bedtime story,
697
00:48:56,001 --> 00:48:57,292
if you catch my drift.
698
00:48:58,876 --> 00:49:00,001
Put the two together,
699
00:49:01,043 --> 00:49:03,459
and that guy has a chance
of having something
700
00:49:03,459 --> 00:49:06,043
he never would've
touched otherwise.
701
00:49:08,876 --> 00:49:09,876
Me.
702
00:49:20,960 --> 00:49:22,335
You.
703
00:49:22,335 --> 00:49:25,126
He's a lucky son of a bitch
to have gotten your candy,
704
00:49:25,126 --> 00:49:26,627
if you don't mind my saying.
705
00:49:29,960 --> 00:49:31,794
- He got kids?
- He does.
706
00:49:31,794 --> 00:49:33,585
- How many?
- Three.
707
00:49:33,585 --> 00:49:35,377
Shit. How old?
708
00:49:36,168 --> 00:49:38,252
- Young.
- His wife young?
709
00:49:38,252 --> 00:49:40,043
No, I think they just waited.
710
00:49:40,043 --> 00:49:42,252
- Have you met her?
- No.
711
00:49:42,252 --> 00:49:44,043
- You seen her?
- No.
712
00:49:44,043 --> 00:49:45,710
But you've seen pictures.
713
00:49:45,710 --> 00:49:47,126
Come on. This day and age,
714
00:49:47,126 --> 00:49:49,252
you wanna find a picture,
you can find a fuckin' picture.
715
00:49:51,168 --> 00:49:52,377
Why do you care?
716
00:49:52,377 --> 00:49:53,335
Huh?
717
00:49:55,169 --> 00:49:57,752
I... I guess, to be honest,
718
00:49:57,752 --> 00:50:00,211
I drive around in this beast
all day,
719
00:50:00,961 --> 00:50:04,044
you got time to do nothing
but think, you know?
720
00:50:04,044 --> 00:50:07,544
When you think too much,
you ask too many questions.
721
00:50:07,544 --> 00:50:09,127
Nothing special about it.
722
00:50:10,669 --> 00:50:12,585
But hey, it...
It ain't all for nothing.
723
00:50:12,585 --> 00:50:14,877
I mean, who else are you gonna
talk to about this shit?
724
00:50:14,877 --> 00:50:16,627
Not like you're ever
gonna see me again.
725
00:50:22,461 --> 00:50:23,461
I...
726
00:50:24,211 --> 00:50:25,836
I found one picture of her.
727
00:50:25,836 --> 00:50:27,294
Mmm-hmm.
728
00:50:27,294 --> 00:50:28,752
They're pretty private.
729
00:50:30,044 --> 00:50:31,545
They both in the picture?
730
00:50:33,127 --> 00:50:34,503
They're at some...
731
00:50:37,336 --> 00:50:39,837
Some corporate thing,
like an award thing.
732
00:50:39,837 --> 00:50:40,753
Mmm-hmm.
733
00:50:40,753 --> 00:50:43,169
And what are they doing,
in the picture?
734
00:50:44,628 --> 00:50:46,837
They're just smiling.
735
00:50:47,962 --> 00:50:50,920
They're sitting next to each
other and they're just...
736
00:50:52,419 --> 00:50:54,795
- smiling at the camera.
- And?
737
00:50:56,670 --> 00:50:59,628
And they just look normal.
738
00:51:01,962 --> 00:51:03,294
They just look normal.
739
00:51:05,920 --> 00:51:08,419
- He win the award?
- He did.
740
00:51:09,087 --> 00:51:11,212
Hmmm. What is he,
some kind of big shot?
741
00:51:11,212 --> 00:51:13,337
- Somebody I'd recognize?
- Oh, yeah.
742
00:51:13,337 --> 00:51:14,461
Uh-huh.
743
00:51:15,379 --> 00:51:17,212
And how old is she? The wife?
744
00:51:19,711 --> 00:51:21,212
Late 40's, I'd say.
745
00:51:21,212 --> 00:51:22,504
She's pretty?
746
00:51:23,878 --> 00:51:25,128
She looks really sweet.
747
00:51:26,628 --> 00:51:27,920
So she's not pretty.
748
00:51:29,587 --> 00:51:31,504
She's lovely.
749
00:51:33,920 --> 00:51:35,795
She has this huge smile.
750
00:51:35,795 --> 00:51:37,254
Like a really...
751
00:51:38,379 --> 00:51:40,254
Like a really happy smile.
752
00:51:49,462 --> 00:51:52,420
I looked at that picture
for a really long time,
753
00:51:53,879 --> 00:51:57,295
and I had this really strange
feeling that maybe...
754
00:52:04,337 --> 00:52:06,504
That she and I
could have been friends.
755
00:52:07,921 --> 00:52:09,213
Maybe.
756
00:52:09,213 --> 00:52:10,129
Hmmm.
757
00:52:10,129 --> 00:52:12,129
Another time,
another place, maybe.
758
00:52:16,712 --> 00:52:18,671
- You ever meet the kids?
- God, no.
759
00:52:20,255 --> 00:52:21,296
Seen pictures?
760
00:52:22,546 --> 00:52:24,171
He shows me pictures.
761
00:52:25,046 --> 00:52:26,380
Fuck, like, on his phone?
762
00:52:26,380 --> 00:52:28,712
Yeah. Videos, too.
763
00:52:28,712 --> 00:52:30,547
Fuck. I mean, that's some trust.
764
00:52:30,547 --> 00:52:32,796
I mean, that's some
fucking trust right there.
765
00:52:35,754 --> 00:52:36,754
Well.
766
00:52:38,171 --> 00:52:39,171
What?
767
00:52:41,879 --> 00:52:42,879
You did it.
768
00:52:44,338 --> 00:52:45,338
What'd I do?
769
00:52:45,338 --> 00:52:47,505
I don't know.
But you did something.
770
00:52:48,004 --> 00:52:49,963
I mean, he let you in.
771
00:52:49,963 --> 00:52:53,255
That's as far as anyone
in your position could ever go.
772
00:52:53,255 --> 00:52:55,672
What am I
supposed to do with that?
773
00:52:56,338 --> 00:52:59,213
Look, it don't change anything,
774
00:52:59,213 --> 00:53:00,922
but it is a compliment.
775
00:53:01,922 --> 00:53:02,922
Kids cute?
776
00:53:03,672 --> 00:53:04,797
They're adorable.
777
00:53:04,797 --> 00:53:06,005
Boys, girls?
778
00:53:07,213 --> 00:53:09,588
- Twin boys and a girl.
- Hmm.
779
00:53:12,338 --> 00:53:15,713
He showed me this video
of his daughter dancing.
780
00:53:16,588 --> 00:53:18,256
She's just three years old,
781
00:53:18,256 --> 00:53:20,713
and she's wearing
this, like, red cape,
782
00:53:20,713 --> 00:53:22,380
like a princess cape
or something,
783
00:53:22,380 --> 00:53:24,922
and she's just twirling
and twirling and twirling.
784
00:53:24,922 --> 00:53:26,463
Dancing for her daddy.
785
00:53:27,672 --> 00:53:28,672
That's sweet.
786
00:53:30,755 --> 00:53:32,214
You ever dance for your daddy?
787
00:53:32,214 --> 00:53:34,464
I mean, your real daddy
when you were a kid.
788
00:53:36,797 --> 00:53:37,797
No.
789
00:53:48,464 --> 00:53:49,964
I did have a cape though.
790
00:53:52,589 --> 00:53:55,130
I had a long purple cape,
791
00:53:57,047 --> 00:54:00,422
and it made me think
I could fly.
792
00:54:00,923 --> 00:54:02,297
Cape wasn't lying.
793
00:54:04,089 --> 00:54:05,840
You can fly just fine.
794
00:54:10,090 --> 00:54:12,214
So, what about the twins?
What do they do?
795
00:54:12,214 --> 00:54:14,506
They seem like good kids.
796
00:54:14,506 --> 00:54:16,798
And you get the feeling
you could have been friends,
797
00:54:17,381 --> 00:54:20,297
with the kids,
another time, another place.
798
00:54:25,257 --> 00:54:26,589
Yeah, well,
799
00:54:28,090 --> 00:54:29,756
he can pretend to be your daddy,
800
00:54:29,756 --> 00:54:31,965
but he's gotta be
their real daddy, so,
801
00:54:33,131 --> 00:54:35,340
you get why
you ain't going to Greece.
802
00:54:38,965 --> 00:54:39,965
Here we go.
803
00:55:06,257 --> 00:55:08,715
Shit, that ain't
no fender bender.
804
00:59:42,886 --> 00:59:44,011
Eleven years.
805
00:59:44,803 --> 00:59:46,220
Big difference.
806
00:59:47,970 --> 00:59:49,928
Your sister
being that much older.
807
00:59:57,220 --> 00:59:58,220
Yeah.
808
00:59:59,303 --> 01:00:02,928
She was only 17
when we both left home.
809
01:00:03,678 --> 01:00:04,678
I was six.
810
01:00:05,719 --> 01:00:07,262
You run away?
811
01:00:07,262 --> 01:00:09,053
I went to live with her.
812
01:00:10,303 --> 01:00:11,678
I mean, I can't imagine
813
01:00:11,678 --> 01:00:14,178
any Oklahoma judge
saying that was all right.
814
01:00:14,178 --> 01:00:16,428
No, no.
815
01:00:16,428 --> 01:00:19,928
No one said it was all right,
but that's what happened.
816
01:00:21,804 --> 01:00:24,178
You lived in the armpit
with your sister?
817
01:00:24,970 --> 01:00:28,053
We moved, actually, to Woodward.
818
01:00:28,887 --> 01:00:30,303
Like 20 minutes away,
819
01:00:32,220 --> 01:00:33,846
into her boyfriend's house.
820
01:00:34,512 --> 01:00:35,512
Boyfriend?
821
01:00:36,303 --> 01:00:38,012
She had boyfriends back then.
822
01:00:38,512 --> 01:00:39,512
Huh.
823
01:00:40,595 --> 01:00:42,595
Why did you go
to live with your sister?
824
01:00:51,595 --> 01:00:53,303
Did your daddy do something?
825
01:00:53,303 --> 01:00:56,345
Something
he shouldn't have done?
826
01:00:58,137 --> 01:00:59,887
No, it was never like that.
827
01:00:59,887 --> 01:01:01,096
What was it like?
828
01:01:06,304 --> 01:01:07,637
Well, he...
829
01:01:12,720 --> 01:01:16,555
He actually never touched me.
830
01:01:17,429 --> 01:01:19,720
I mean, not one hug? Not one?
831
01:01:19,720 --> 01:01:21,388
Didn't have to be a hug.
832
01:01:22,388 --> 01:01:24,846
You know, a pat on the back
would've been nice,
833
01:01:25,471 --> 01:01:27,596
a fuckin' high five.
834
01:01:31,012 --> 01:01:32,763
But I remember the day we left,
835
01:01:33,471 --> 01:01:35,012
my sister jumped in her car,
836
01:01:35,012 --> 01:01:38,471
and my dad
was sitting on the front porch.
837
01:01:39,429 --> 01:01:44,179
And before I left,
I turned and I looked at him,
838
01:01:45,137 --> 01:01:47,596
and he looked at me, and...
839
01:01:48,555 --> 01:01:51,138
And he got up,
and he walked over to me
840
01:01:51,138 --> 01:01:53,429
and he reached out and...
841
01:01:56,263 --> 01:01:57,888
And he shook my hand.
842
01:02:04,097 --> 01:02:06,680
I had never shaken
anyone's hand before.
843
01:02:09,055 --> 01:02:10,430
I was six.
844
01:02:11,264 --> 01:02:14,430
I was just little, you know?
But I knew what it meant.
845
01:02:17,805 --> 01:02:19,972
What did he look like? Your pop?
846
01:02:20,597 --> 01:02:23,264
Oh, he was a cowboy.
847
01:02:23,264 --> 01:02:26,264
Never met
a cowboy before.
848
01:02:26,805 --> 01:02:28,888
Gotta put that on my list.
849
01:02:29,888 --> 01:02:31,180
You know, before I die.
850
01:02:31,180 --> 01:02:33,722
Number 22,
meet a motherfuckin' cowboy.
851
01:02:35,264 --> 01:02:36,888
What else is on your list?
852
01:02:38,138 --> 01:02:40,681
You know,
I've already done most of it.
853
01:02:41,972 --> 01:02:42,973
Like what?
854
01:02:43,931 --> 01:02:45,013
Like...
855
01:02:46,138 --> 01:02:48,305
I learned to scuba dive
last year.
856
01:02:50,180 --> 01:02:52,681
Took a trip to Nassau,
sat on the edge of a boat.
857
01:02:53,430 --> 01:02:56,014
And, you know, they make
you fall backward, right?
858
01:02:56,931 --> 01:02:58,514
So, you fall back in the water,
859
01:02:58,514 --> 01:03:00,848
and you start to let
the wind out of your sails,
860
01:03:00,848 --> 01:03:03,181
and you go down, down, down.
861
01:03:03,848 --> 01:03:06,181
I mean, I didn't go too far,
862
01:03:06,181 --> 01:03:07,764
I don't have
the training for that,
863
01:03:07,764 --> 01:03:11,390
crazy stuff like shipwrecks
or whatnot.
864
01:03:13,514 --> 01:03:15,390
Saw a blue whale even, yeah.
865
01:03:16,139 --> 01:03:18,056
Big-ass whale
passed right by us.
866
01:03:18,056 --> 01:03:21,390
I mean, it was just swimming
along like it was nothing.
867
01:03:24,098 --> 01:03:25,681
Fuckin' poetry, that shit.
868
01:03:27,098 --> 01:03:29,640
- Wow.
- Yeah. Big fuckin' wow.
869
01:03:31,682 --> 01:03:35,640
But I don't know
if I'll do it again.
870
01:03:36,848 --> 01:03:37,848
Why not?
871
01:03:38,931 --> 01:03:41,682
It takes a lot of guts
to breathe underwater.
872
01:03:42,807 --> 01:03:45,306
That's the biggest challenge,
just telling your...
873
01:03:46,098 --> 01:03:47,306
Allowing your body
874
01:03:47,306 --> 01:03:50,056
to do this thing
it wasn't meant to do, you know?
875
01:03:50,849 --> 01:03:52,473
I wasn't afraid to see a shark,
876
01:03:53,306 --> 01:03:57,099
I wasn't afraid to be alone.
Mostly just...
877
01:03:59,723 --> 01:04:01,015
...afraid of breathing.
878
01:04:04,182 --> 01:04:09,182
I mean, that's pretty scary shit
when you're afraid to breathe.
879
01:04:15,515 --> 01:04:17,182
I always liked sharks.
880
01:04:18,849 --> 01:04:19,849
Did you see one?
881
01:04:22,890 --> 01:04:23,890
No.
882
01:04:24,598 --> 01:04:27,057
But I always tell everyone
I did. You know?
883
01:04:27,558 --> 01:04:30,599
Great white shark, 13 feet long,
884
01:04:30,599 --> 01:04:34,432
two, three tons, just swimming
around me, looking for lunch.
885
01:04:34,932 --> 01:04:36,266
Until I look him
straight in the eye,
886
01:04:36,266 --> 01:04:37,432
give him the middle finger,
887
01:04:37,432 --> 01:04:38,849
and that shark
swims the fuck away
888
01:04:38,849 --> 01:04:40,015
'cause he knows what's going on.
889
01:04:40,015 --> 01:04:42,641
Oh, wow.
That's your story?
890
01:04:42,641 --> 01:04:44,349
Yeah, I fuckin' love that story.
891
01:04:46,224 --> 01:04:48,391
What's on your list
that you haven't done?
892
01:04:49,474 --> 01:04:51,558
I do want to
go to Japan one day.
893
01:04:51,558 --> 01:04:52,808
Heard a lot about it.
894
01:04:52,808 --> 01:04:54,683
Heard about
how they got these...
895
01:04:56,808 --> 01:04:58,182
These vending machines
896
01:05:00,432 --> 01:05:03,599
with used bloomers in 'em.
897
01:05:04,391 --> 01:05:05,933
- Bloomers?
- Panties!
898
01:05:05,933 --> 01:05:07,891
Oh, come on, man!
We've been over this.
899
01:05:07,891 --> 01:05:09,349
Well, I tried to call 'em
something else,
900
01:05:09,349 --> 01:05:11,016
you didn't know what the fuck
I was talkin' about.
901
01:05:11,016 --> 01:05:12,599
They got used panties!
902
01:05:12,599 --> 01:05:14,808
- Oh, God, no.
- Panties.
903
01:05:14,808 --> 01:05:16,683
- Panties in vending machines.
- No.
904
01:05:16,683 --> 01:05:18,558
- Oh, my God.
- That's what I heard.
905
01:05:19,308 --> 01:05:20,516
I gotta see that shit.
906
01:05:20,516 --> 01:05:22,308
They can't really be used.
907
01:05:22,308 --> 01:05:23,558
I don't give a fuck either way,
908
01:05:23,558 --> 01:05:25,599
it'll be mind over matter
on that one.
909
01:05:28,724 --> 01:05:29,724
What about you?
910
01:05:29,724 --> 01:05:30,641
Huh?
911
01:05:31,225 --> 01:05:32,433
What's on your list?
912
01:05:34,350 --> 01:05:35,433
I don't know.
913
01:05:35,433 --> 01:05:37,100
Come on, talk to me.
914
01:05:42,350 --> 01:05:45,350
Well, I have always wanted
to learn how to swing dance.
915
01:05:46,016 --> 01:05:48,016
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
916
01:05:49,058 --> 01:05:51,267
Like get tossed around
and stuff.
917
01:05:51,267 --> 01:05:53,767
It looks like a lot of fun.
I think I'd be good at it.
918
01:05:53,767 --> 01:05:56,267
I bet you would.
919
01:05:56,267 --> 01:05:58,016
And I wanna be one of those
920
01:05:58,016 --> 01:06:00,767
freaky bird-watchers
in Central Park,
921
01:06:00,767 --> 01:06:04,684
who just knows
everything about all the birds.
922
01:06:05,684 --> 01:06:07,892
Someone who can
recognize their calls.
923
01:06:09,725 --> 01:06:11,183
I just wanna be a bird lady.
924
01:06:12,308 --> 01:06:13,308
What else?
925
01:06:15,433 --> 01:06:16,475
I have been...
926
01:06:17,268 --> 01:06:19,767
I've been thinking
about having a little...
927
01:06:20,475 --> 01:06:22,934
Like a little herb garden
in my window.
928
01:06:23,559 --> 01:06:27,351
You know, just basil and stuff.
929
01:06:28,393 --> 01:06:31,142
Try to remember to use it
when I'm cooking,
930
01:06:33,017 --> 01:06:34,434
which isn't very often.
931
01:06:35,892 --> 01:06:38,560
But I like the idea of it
being there.
932
01:06:38,560 --> 01:06:39,642
What else?
933
01:06:39,642 --> 01:06:43,309
I wanna
habla español perfectamente.
934
01:06:43,309 --> 01:06:47,685
And I want to go to Oaxaca
during Noche de Rábanos,
935
01:06:47,685 --> 01:06:50,059
and I want to eat
all the things.
936
01:06:50,934 --> 01:06:53,934
Like the ants,
and, you know, the crickets.
937
01:06:54,560 --> 01:06:55,560
And, yes,
938
01:06:55,560 --> 01:07:00,142
I do wanna stand at the edge
of a fuckin' cliff in Greece,
939
01:07:01,268 --> 01:07:03,434
and dive off that motherfucker.
940
01:07:03,434 --> 01:07:04,726
What else?
941
01:07:04,726 --> 01:07:07,309
What do you mean what else?
I just told you so much.
942
01:07:07,309 --> 01:07:08,977
What, it's time
for me to ante up?
943
01:07:08,977 --> 01:07:10,226
Yeah, damn straight.
944
01:07:10,226 --> 01:07:11,351
How many chips
you got on the table?
945
01:07:11,351 --> 01:07:13,643
Two. We're tied, remember?
946
01:07:13,643 --> 01:07:15,560
- Two to two.
- And you raise me one.
947
01:07:15,560 --> 01:07:17,143
And it better be a good one.
948
01:07:17,143 --> 01:07:18,476
I'll give you a good one,
and you'll match me?
949
01:07:18,476 --> 01:07:20,852
I'm not gonna let you win,
that's for damn sure.
950
01:07:20,852 --> 01:07:23,810
All right, all right.
I can hang.
951
01:07:26,977 --> 01:07:28,977
And it's gotta be
something personal, okay?
952
01:07:28,977 --> 01:07:32,018
Not one of, like,
your little anecdotes.
953
01:07:33,726 --> 01:07:36,185
Well, fuck, I don't know.
954
01:07:36,185 --> 01:07:39,018
Um... Hmm.
955
01:07:39,018 --> 01:07:40,102
Like...
956
01:07:42,810 --> 01:07:44,018
How'd you meet your wife?
957
01:07:46,185 --> 01:07:47,185
Which one?
958
01:07:47,893 --> 01:07:48,893
The first one.
959
01:07:53,935 --> 01:07:55,686
She threw up in my cab.
960
01:07:56,727 --> 01:07:57,561
Classy.
961
01:07:57,561 --> 01:07:59,686
Yeah, she was clubbing.
962
01:07:59,686 --> 01:08:02,519
You know, she was, like,
with her girlfriends,
963
01:08:02,519 --> 01:08:04,227
ladies' night or some shit.
964
01:08:05,269 --> 01:08:08,811
And they were all in these
tight dresses and high heels,
965
01:08:09,519 --> 01:08:13,394
and they smelled
like booze and sweat,
966
01:08:14,310 --> 01:08:15,894
and flowers.
967
01:08:15,894 --> 01:08:17,061
And I was in heaven.
968
01:08:17,061 --> 01:08:19,310
All these pretty ladies
jammed in my cab,
969
01:08:19,310 --> 01:08:21,811
sitting on each other's laps,
talking so loud,
970
01:08:21,811 --> 01:08:24,394
laughing,
screaming out the window.
971
01:08:24,394 --> 01:08:26,477
And I gotta tell you,
I gotta be honest.
972
01:08:27,686 --> 01:08:29,978
My cock was so fuckin' hard,
973
01:08:29,978 --> 01:08:31,853
it was just
pounding in my panties
974
01:08:31,853 --> 01:08:33,144
- because...
- Oh, my God.
975
01:08:33,144 --> 01:08:35,144
God, the odds were, I was
gonna get lucky that night.
976
01:08:35,144 --> 01:08:38,186
If I didn't get lucky, at least
I'd get enough good material
977
01:08:38,186 --> 01:08:40,477
to rub one out at the end of
the night. You know what I mean?
978
01:08:40,477 --> 01:08:41,769
Mmm.
979
01:08:41,769 --> 01:08:43,228
And then outta nowhere,
980
01:08:44,186 --> 01:08:46,270
Blondie doubles over
in the back,
981
01:08:46,270 --> 01:08:47,727
empties her stomach.
982
01:08:47,727 --> 01:08:51,270
Which wasn't holding that much,
I'm thankful to report.
983
01:08:51,270 --> 01:08:52,395
And what happened?
984
01:08:52,395 --> 01:08:54,144
There's not much you can do,
you know?
985
01:08:54,144 --> 01:08:56,353
Drop 'em off
and get back to the garage,
986
01:08:56,353 --> 01:08:57,520
hose down the cab.
987
01:08:59,019 --> 01:09:01,603
And there it was, right there.
988
01:09:03,478 --> 01:09:04,478
Her purse.
989
01:09:04,478 --> 01:09:05,728
Hmm.
990
01:09:05,728 --> 01:09:07,894
So, next day
she calls the company,
991
01:09:07,894 --> 01:09:10,812
and me being
the gentleman that I am,
992
01:09:10,812 --> 01:09:13,061
I offer to bring it
out there myself.
993
01:09:14,061 --> 01:09:19,186
And I didn't have to jerk off
after paying her a visit,
994
01:09:19,186 --> 01:09:20,478
I can tell you that.
995
01:09:24,144 --> 01:09:25,145
Yeah.
996
01:09:32,145 --> 01:09:33,687
Why did you marry her?
997
01:09:39,812 --> 01:09:41,145
She was a doll.
998
01:09:44,520 --> 01:09:47,104
Dumb as shit.
But still, she was...
999
01:09:48,770 --> 01:09:50,229
She was a sweetheart.
1000
01:09:52,687 --> 01:09:55,687
I used to play pranks on her,
you know?
1001
01:09:55,687 --> 01:09:57,812
Hide behind the couch,
then jump out.
1002
01:09:57,812 --> 01:10:01,688
Or... Or, you know, putting
sugar in the salt shaker,
1003
01:10:01,688 --> 01:10:02,979
just dumb shit like that.
1004
01:10:02,979 --> 01:10:05,563
And she always laughed
about it, you know?
1005
01:10:06,979 --> 01:10:08,813
She'd choose to laugh about it.
1006
01:10:08,813 --> 01:10:11,104
Like, when something happens,
1007
01:10:12,646 --> 01:10:14,646
and you got a choice,
1008
01:10:15,437 --> 01:10:18,896
that choice to get pissed off
1009
01:10:19,729 --> 01:10:20,980
or to laugh it off,
1010
01:10:20,980 --> 01:10:22,145
she'd laugh.
1011
01:10:23,145 --> 01:10:25,145
She'd choose to laugh
every time.
1012
01:10:26,187 --> 01:10:27,229
Did she ever get you?
1013
01:10:27,229 --> 01:10:28,688
What? A prank?
1014
01:10:28,688 --> 01:10:30,646
Mmm-hmm.
1015
01:10:30,646 --> 01:10:31,729
She did one time.
1016
01:10:32,354 --> 01:10:34,729
She poured cold water
all over me
1017
01:10:34,729 --> 01:10:36,312
when I was in the shower.
1018
01:10:36,312 --> 01:10:39,521
Like a bucket of ice water,
Niagara Falls.
1019
01:10:40,563 --> 01:10:42,521
And I had that same choice,
you know?
1020
01:10:42,521 --> 01:10:45,063
Either to get pissed
or to laugh it off.
1021
01:10:45,938 --> 01:10:47,688
And what did you choose?
1022
01:10:47,688 --> 01:10:50,313
I laughed my fuckin' ass off.
1023
01:10:50,313 --> 01:10:52,688
Chased her around the house
in my birthday suit,
1024
01:10:52,688 --> 01:10:55,230
she's screaming like
a little girl and everything,
1025
01:10:55,230 --> 01:10:57,021
like we were playing tag
and shit.
1026
01:10:58,230 --> 01:11:00,188
Finally caught her
in the kitchen.
1027
01:11:02,980 --> 01:11:04,188
That was a good day.
1028
01:11:06,522 --> 01:11:09,438
I bet she's a lot smarter
than you give her credit for.
1029
01:11:14,397 --> 01:11:15,397
Do you miss her?
1030
01:11:25,313 --> 01:11:27,772
I do sometimes. Yeah.
1031
01:11:30,438 --> 01:11:32,313
She was like a summer day,
you know?
1032
01:11:32,313 --> 01:11:34,647
Not too complicated,
just, you know,
1033
01:11:34,647 --> 01:11:37,106
beer and a bag of chips,
and we were set.
1034
01:11:40,772 --> 01:11:43,522
Three to two.
You gonna match me or what?
1035
01:11:45,647 --> 01:11:47,939
I mean, that last one's
a tough act to follow.
1036
01:11:47,939 --> 01:11:50,231
- Yeah, you surprised me there.
- I surprised myself,
1037
01:11:50,231 --> 01:11:53,273
- I don't talk about my shit.
- You think I talk about my shit?
1038
01:11:53,273 --> 01:11:55,564
Well, there you go.
That's what's on the table.
1039
01:11:55,564 --> 01:11:58,314
Let's talk about the shit,
let's talk about all the shit.
1040
01:11:58,314 --> 01:12:00,439
- Okay. All right.
- All right.
1041
01:12:00,439 --> 01:12:01,856
- All right.
- All right.
1042
01:12:03,356 --> 01:12:04,856
I'll think of something juicy.
1043
01:12:06,356 --> 01:12:07,356
Easy.
1044
01:12:08,814 --> 01:12:10,147
Make it about your daddy.
1045
01:12:11,939 --> 01:12:12,939
Which one?
1046
01:12:13,897 --> 01:12:14,897
You pick.
1047
01:12:14,897 --> 01:12:15,981
Fuck.
1048
01:12:18,523 --> 01:12:19,731
Come on.
1049
01:12:19,731 --> 01:12:22,356
There's gotta be at least one
more thing you haven't told me.
1050
01:12:22,356 --> 01:12:24,565
Something you're just
dying to say out loud.
1051
01:12:27,231 --> 01:12:28,314
Take your time.
1052
01:12:30,982 --> 01:12:32,606
Not like I'm going nowhere.
1053
01:17:33,152 --> 01:17:36,111
Got a few more minutes if you
still wanna play for the win.
1054
01:17:42,111 --> 01:17:43,152
What's left?
1055
01:17:43,902 --> 01:17:45,570
What have you not told me about?
1056
01:17:48,236 --> 01:17:52,528
Last night,
my sister and I, we...
1057
01:17:52,528 --> 01:17:53,986
We got drunk.
1058
01:17:55,069 --> 01:17:56,486
We got really drunk,
1059
01:17:56,486 --> 01:17:58,903
and we were sitting
outside her trailer.
1060
01:17:59,862 --> 01:18:02,070
And she has these little...
1061
01:18:03,403 --> 01:18:04,361
Um...
1062
01:18:04,361 --> 01:18:07,403
These little
chili pepper lights, like...
1063
01:18:08,987 --> 01:18:11,028
Christmas lights or something,
you know?
1064
01:18:11,820 --> 01:18:13,319
Just draped around,
1065
01:18:14,319 --> 01:18:16,486
and we sat
in these old beach chairs,
1066
01:18:16,486 --> 01:18:18,070
and just drank and drank.
1067
01:18:19,862 --> 01:18:20,862
What about Eagle?
1068
01:18:22,778 --> 01:18:23,862
Eagle was around,
1069
01:18:23,862 --> 01:18:25,903
she was grilling up
some burgers.
1070
01:18:28,279 --> 01:18:29,903
You talk about the bathtub?
1071
01:18:30,778 --> 01:18:35,695
We did. I brought it up,
and she just laughed.
1072
01:18:37,112 --> 01:18:39,571
She laughed so hard she cried.
1073
01:18:39,571 --> 01:18:43,320
She didn't apologize
or anything, it was amazing.
1074
01:18:44,612 --> 01:18:46,654
What else
did you talk about?
1075
01:18:46,654 --> 01:18:49,028
We talked about just everything,
1076
01:18:49,028 --> 01:18:51,612
like the perms
our mom used to give us,
1077
01:18:51,612 --> 01:18:55,237
sitting on a stool
in the... In the kitchen
1078
01:18:55,237 --> 01:18:59,529
with this, like, old pink towel
draped over our shoulders,
1079
01:18:59,529 --> 01:19:02,529
and you know, that smell,
that horrible perm smell
1080
01:19:02,529 --> 01:19:04,988
that just sticks around
for days.
1081
01:19:05,612 --> 01:19:07,487
And we start
talking about that day,
1082
01:19:08,821 --> 01:19:10,320
the day she took me away.
1083
01:19:11,612 --> 01:19:14,196
And I told my side of the story,
and then...
1084
01:19:16,237 --> 01:19:18,154
And then she told her side.
1085
01:19:19,737 --> 01:19:21,154
What did she tell you?
1086
01:19:21,696 --> 01:19:24,487
She said that our dad
was on the porch that day.
1087
01:19:26,113 --> 01:19:27,154
And...
1088
01:19:29,821 --> 01:19:32,946
That we passed him
as we walked to the car.
1089
01:19:35,612 --> 01:19:40,029
And then she said that
she got in the car,
1090
01:19:42,863 --> 01:19:44,405
and then I got in the car,
1091
01:19:46,904 --> 01:19:48,613
and we just drove away.
1092
01:19:49,821 --> 01:19:54,405
She said, "He didn't shake
your hand that day."
1093
01:19:55,029 --> 01:19:58,405
But when I think back on it,
it doesn't make any sense.
1094
01:19:59,613 --> 01:20:01,822
Because I remember it
so clearly.
1095
01:20:02,530 --> 01:20:05,363
Even I remember
the feel of his hand.
1096
01:20:07,697 --> 01:20:10,280
I remember thinking
it felt like sandpaper.
1097
01:20:12,030 --> 01:20:13,613
So, which of you is right?
1098
01:20:15,738 --> 01:20:16,905
You or your sister?
1099
01:20:17,780 --> 01:20:18,780
I don't know.
1100
01:20:20,488 --> 01:20:21,488
But...
1101
01:20:23,655 --> 01:20:25,405
If that memory isn't real,
1102
01:20:28,864 --> 01:20:33,864
the moment my father
finally touched me,
1103
01:20:37,281 --> 01:20:39,155
then I don't know what is, man.
1104
01:20:43,447 --> 01:20:44,947
Ones and zeroes.
1105
01:20:47,030 --> 01:20:48,447
Yeah, ones and zeroes.
1106
01:20:49,197 --> 01:20:50,989
I got a story kinda like that.
1107
01:20:53,489 --> 01:20:54,573
About my pop.
1108
01:20:56,989 --> 01:20:58,239
That moment where
1109
01:20:59,739 --> 01:21:02,114
everything comes into focus.
1110
01:21:04,447 --> 01:21:05,447
And then...
1111
01:21:08,155 --> 01:21:09,489
goes out again.
1112
01:21:13,656 --> 01:21:15,990
But that's a story
for another cab ride.
1113
01:21:20,197 --> 01:21:21,364
We're tied again.
1114
01:21:22,739 --> 01:21:25,322
- Three to three.
- Three to three.
1115
01:21:26,865 --> 01:21:27,865
Nice.
1116
01:21:54,323 --> 01:21:56,031
We did a rain dance last night.
1117
01:21:57,823 --> 01:22:00,448
The three of us, just drunk.
1118
01:22:02,574 --> 01:22:05,323
But Eagle, Eagle showed us how.
1119
01:22:05,323 --> 01:22:06,948
Mmm-hmm.
1120
01:22:06,948 --> 01:22:08,031
Did it rain?
1121
01:22:11,282 --> 01:22:12,657
Well, that's the thing.
1122
01:22:22,699 --> 01:22:26,407
Two weeks ago,
when I flew to Oklahoma...
1123
01:22:33,574 --> 01:22:34,657
I was pregnant.
1124
01:22:41,366 --> 01:22:44,157
What'd your daddy
have to say about that?
1125
01:22:48,074 --> 01:22:49,408
I never told him.
1126
01:22:53,491 --> 01:22:54,491
I never...
1127
01:22:56,575 --> 01:22:58,283
I never told anyone.
1128
01:23:04,116 --> 01:23:05,782
Did you get rid of the baby?
1129
01:23:10,449 --> 01:23:11,658
It got rid of me.
1130
01:23:16,449 --> 01:23:19,991
The first day in Oklahoma,
I started bleeding,
1131
01:23:20,741 --> 01:23:22,408
and my sister didn't know.
1132
01:23:23,032 --> 01:23:25,491
I... I just told her
I was having a bad period,
1133
01:23:25,491 --> 01:23:27,324
like a really
bad period, like...
1134
01:23:28,992 --> 01:23:30,117
She let me sleep a lot,
1135
01:23:30,117 --> 01:23:32,950
and gave me a heating pad
and some ice cream, and...
1136
01:23:36,449 --> 01:23:39,575
But then, after seven days,
1137
01:23:39,992 --> 01:23:41,449
when I kept bleeding,
1138
01:23:42,783 --> 01:23:44,992
I had to hide the tampons...
1139
01:23:44,992 --> 01:23:47,449
...and pretend it was just a...
1140
01:23:48,575 --> 01:23:51,075
a normal period, that it ended.
1141
01:23:54,533 --> 01:23:58,242
I had to get up and go out
and meet her friends, and...
1142
01:23:59,075 --> 01:24:01,908
Just feeling like...
1143
01:24:09,950 --> 01:24:11,367
Like trash.
1144
01:24:25,701 --> 01:24:27,158
I wasn't gonna keep it.
1145
01:24:31,617 --> 01:24:34,701
I had made up my mind,
I wasn't gonna keep it,
1146
01:24:35,534 --> 01:24:37,200
and I wasn't gonna tell anyone.
1147
01:24:43,450 --> 01:24:44,450
But then...
1148
01:24:49,159 --> 01:24:50,826
But then when it happened...
1149
01:24:53,784 --> 01:24:54,784
When it just...
1150
01:24:57,951 --> 01:25:00,243
It just happened on its own,
1151
01:25:02,076 --> 01:25:03,076
I was...
1152
01:25:05,993 --> 01:25:07,951
I was so...
1153
01:25:10,243 --> 01:25:11,368
relieved.
1154
01:25:14,909 --> 01:25:18,368
I had never been more relieved
in my whole life.
1155
01:25:23,493 --> 01:25:24,577
And then last night...
1156
01:25:31,451 --> 01:25:32,743
...when we were dancing,
1157
01:25:34,577 --> 01:25:35,785
in my mind,
1158
01:25:39,952 --> 01:25:43,952
I really did, I just begged
the sky to rain down on me.
1159
01:25:45,952 --> 01:25:47,702
To just clean me.
1160
01:25:53,910 --> 01:25:55,785
To wash it all away.
1161
01:26:01,244 --> 01:26:02,660
The whole fucking thing.
1162
01:26:05,660 --> 01:26:08,160
I asked the sky
to just...
1163
01:26:08,660 --> 01:26:10,077
...take it from me.
1164
01:26:19,619 --> 01:26:22,077
And then this morning,
I woke up...
1165
01:26:30,870 --> 01:26:32,828
...and I wasn't
bleeding anymore.
1166
01:26:34,870 --> 01:26:37,077
It had stopped after two weeks.
1167
01:26:44,619 --> 01:26:45,953
Rain dance worked.
1168
01:26:59,828 --> 01:27:00,828
Four to three.
1169
01:27:00,828 --> 01:27:03,911
Shit. I fold.
1170
01:27:05,494 --> 01:27:06,494
I win?
1171
01:27:06,494 --> 01:27:08,578
Can't beat that,
that's for sure.
1172
01:27:12,995 --> 01:27:13,995
Fuck.
1173
01:27:14,953 --> 01:27:16,078
God damn.
1174
01:28:34,788 --> 01:28:36,496
I don't have any cash.
1175
01:28:37,079 --> 01:28:38,996
- I'm sorry.
- No one ever does.
1176
01:28:38,996 --> 01:28:42,538
I'm sorry. I'm gonna
leave you a big tip though.
1177
01:28:42,538 --> 01:28:45,413
Yeah, my advice
don't come for free.
1178
01:28:46,204 --> 01:28:47,413
You gonna need a receipt?
1179
01:28:47,413 --> 01:28:48,997
No, I'm good.
1180
01:29:33,205 --> 01:29:34,205
So...
1181
01:29:36,038 --> 01:29:37,122
So...
1182
01:29:44,622 --> 01:29:45,997
You gonna be all right?
1183
01:29:52,038 --> 01:29:53,581
I don't know.
1184
01:29:56,581 --> 01:29:57,664
Your brain,
1185
01:29:58,831 --> 01:30:00,747
it's a little confused
right now.
1186
01:30:02,372 --> 01:30:03,747
It's in panic 'cause...
1187
01:30:04,873 --> 01:30:06,873
you ain't used to
breathing underwater,
1188
01:30:08,248 --> 01:30:10,873
and it's telling you
you're in way over your head.
1189
01:30:10,873 --> 01:30:14,455
"This is it, no way out.
Done, end of story."
1190
01:30:18,414 --> 01:30:20,164
You just keep breathing.
1191
01:30:20,164 --> 01:30:22,081
No matter how far down you go,
1192
01:30:24,581 --> 01:30:25,706
you keep breathing.
1193
01:30:27,706 --> 01:30:29,248
You're gonna be all right.
1194
01:30:30,081 --> 01:30:31,206
Someone like you...
1195
01:30:35,873 --> 01:30:37,747
You are not a shipwreck.
1196
01:30:39,582 --> 01:30:41,123
You're gonna swim back up.
1197
01:30:41,914 --> 01:30:45,582
Swim back up to all that light
and life and colors
1198
01:30:46,623 --> 01:30:47,623
you are.
1199
01:30:58,456 --> 01:31:00,040
You might even see a blue whale.
1200
01:31:03,999 --> 01:31:04,999
I hope so.
1201
01:31:31,707 --> 01:31:32,707
Thank you.
1202
01:31:34,707 --> 01:31:36,915
You're most welcome.
1203
01:31:48,332 --> 01:31:49,749
You have a good night.
1204
01:31:51,374 --> 01:31:52,374
You, too.
1205
01:32:12,000 --> 01:32:13,083
Mikey.
1206
01:32:14,541 --> 01:32:15,541
What?
1207
01:32:17,958 --> 01:32:20,041
I just always felt
more like a Mikey,
1208
01:32:20,041 --> 01:32:21,833
not like a Vinny, not a Clark.
1209
01:32:22,833 --> 01:32:24,083
If it were up to me,
1210
01:32:26,416 --> 01:32:27,708
I'd choose Mikey.
1211
01:32:48,208 --> 01:32:49,375
Good night, Mikey.